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  life=pain

  by paul from cleveland in

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  i've started drinking again.

  i stopped for a month but i gave in again.

  sorry i'm writing it here but who else am i going to tell?

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  paul from cleveland

  Anyway, I'm going to bed now. It's 2:15am here and this glass of wine has made me tired. Thank you for listening.
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  life=pain

  by paul from cleveland in

  1. jw
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  i've started drinking again.

  i stopped for a month but i gave in again.

  sorry i'm writing it here but who else am i going to tell?

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  paul from cleveland

  Thanks Noni and poopsicakes. If it's any consolation to those whom have been cheated upon, being the cheater is a horribly painful experience. Yes, I did the wrong thing and I've been paying for it for years. Guilt and self loathing.
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  life=pain

  by paul from cleveland in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i've started drinking again.

  i stopped for a month but i gave in again.

  sorry i'm writing it here but who else am i going to tell?

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  paul from cleveland

  Sure, what difference does it make now... I've taken a wrecking ball to my life by cheating on my partner. I've hurt the person that means everything to me. We're no longer together and now I have forever to think about the consequences of my actions.
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  life=pain

  by paul from cleveland in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i've started drinking again.

  i stopped for a month but i gave in again.

  sorry i'm writing it here but who else am i going to tell?

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  paul from cleveland

  Guilt. I'm haunted by the things I've done.
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  life=pain

  by paul from cleveland in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i've started drinking again.

  i stopped for a month but i gave in again.

  sorry i'm writing it here but who else am i going to tell?

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  paul from cleveland

  I've started drinking again. Just now. I stopped for a month but I gave in again. Sorry I'm writing it here but who else am I going to tell? God? I need a way to stop painful thoughts without drugs and alcohol.
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  With Heavy Heart

  by PSacramento in

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  sometimes we find a place and it feels like home, it is accepting and understanding.. then, sometimes, that place becomes cold and inhospitible.. when i first joined here i felt i have found a good place.. people like narkissos, leolaia and others impressed me with their knowledge of scripture and motivated me to learn more for myself.. others touched me with the stories of their pan and hurt, pain and hurt that i was feeling also.. i don't think i ever offended anyone with my views on christianity and if i have i sincerly apologise for that was not my intent.. but things change and sometimes home isn't home anymore.... this site had been invalable to me for my understanding what is wrong with the jw's relgion and the wt, it has strengthened my faith and belief.. here i found people of religon, faith and love.. here i found agnostics and athiest that challenged my views and made me question, they made me a believe via reason and not "blind faith".. for that, i thank all of you, especially the "jeff's" ( ak and alltime), i also say a special thanks to leavingthewt, many of his posts made me feel welcomed and made me think and be a better person.. chalam, bts, dd and so many others, i thank you from my heart for your kind words over these many months.. people like mary and sylvia and so many others filled my heart with love with their stories.. all the best to you my dear brothers and sisters.. .

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  paul from cleveland

  I hope you don't go. I like reading your posts.
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  I'm dying here in Cleveland

  by paul from cleveland in

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  this economy is killing me.

  many sleepless nights..

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  paul from cleveland

  Thanks jaguarbass, I'll look into that.
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  So.....do you or don't you want them to come after you?

  by Quillsky in

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  i've noticed an interesting dichotomy in these discussions.

  as a starting point, i understand that we are all different --- there is no "we" here except that we have all been, or been involved with, jw's.

  but this is interesting..... some people complain about being "hounded" by elders and shepherding calls and previous "friends" and so on.

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  paul from cleveland

  I would have liked it if someone came to talk to me. I try to talk to them, when I see them in public, but they just won't talk back. When they see me they turn and walk away without saying a word. I've tried to call some "friends" but they'll hang up as soon as they hear my voice. Even my own brother. In a way, it makes me feel very powerful. They must think that hearing a few words out of my mouth will shatter their faith.
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  I'm dying here in Cleveland

  by paul from cleveland in

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  this economy is killing me.

  many sleepless nights..

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  paul from cleveland

  Nancy, I guess that was before my time. Sounds cruel.
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  I'm dying here in Cleveland

  by paul from cleveland in

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  this economy is killing me.

  many sleepless nights..

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  paul from cleveland

  No, I live in the Tremont neighborhood of Cleveland. Just a mile from downtown.

  

  Where they filmed the movie "The Deer Hunter"